I Give Up

I'm so tired of all of this. If the guy likes me, WHY THE HELL IS HE NEVER OVER HERE OR TALKING TO ME?????!!!!!! So ya, I give up on him. I also give up on any other guys I thought liked me. (those who are my roommates know who I'm talking about).
I'm tired of always feeling like I'm a total bimbo in front of them, I'm tired of always thinking about them, I'm tired of absolutely everything!!!!!!! So I'm giving up. I'll go to school, do my homework, exercise, loose 27 lbs (which is what I need to loose), and when I turn 20 I'll turn in my mission papers, and when I'm 21 I'll go on a mission, and then I'll graduate from BYU-I at 24, and go teach Drama at some high school for the rest of my life.
When the dude comes that I'm suppose to marry, he'll come. I ask for help being patient and that's just what I get, I also ask for help with the searching part, and I get nada. So ya, I give up. He comes when he comes, and I'm not wasting anymore of my time and emotions on dude's that just aren't worth it. I like them, they're amazing, but they're just going to be friends.

Here I think we need a happier note, look at this awesome picture!

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Hey there, imaginary readers!
So I don't really know what to blog about today. So I guess I'll ramble. I'm really upset that my roommate Jay has yet to stop smoking cigarettes (again), I mean when she joined the church she said that she wouldn't do that  anymore, and I can understand that she was stressed out of her mind when she was here in Idaho (really she just needed to stay in Jersey for at least 2 years before she came out here), but still there are other ways to deal with stress than some more............risky methods (hahahahaha), anyway ya that kinda pisses me off a bit. But she knows how I feel about it and all I can do is love her and hope that she quits soon. =).

Hmmm, I'm really tired. Hahaha, I've been really tired for the past two weeks. Probably because I tend to not go to bed till 2 in the morning. Well since I'm pooped and really want to go to bed, I'm going to. Blog Later.

Sorry it's been so long

Ok so I'm not sure when I last posted and I apologize for that. I REALLY DO!!!! So ya I guess I'll catch you up on a few things, well it's a new semester. Dorothy is across the hall in 716, Becca and Jay who were best friends aren't anymore, Jay and Troy are not only broken up but not even friends. Jay went back to New Jersey to work last Friday(so sad that she's not here) and we have a new roommate who is WAY awesome. Her name is Breana, she's a sophmore(4th semester), she's majoring in bio, and is a very fun person when you get her out of her shy shell. Durinda is up here at BYU-I with me and is my roommate and it's been great having her here with me! A whole drama thing happened between Dorothy, Jay and Ian. Don't want to get into it, I've been doing nothing but homework for the past month. I literally have no money whatsoever. I have two guys that like me (well one that i know likes me and the other one I'm still not sure but he hints that he does, I just wish he would come right out and say it, GOSH!), Isaac and Blake are their names, going to see Avengers with Isaac next week, saw Dark Shadows with Durinda, it was good, I laughed a lot. Hahaha.And I think, oh wait, Alejandra and April are expecting. so those are two more additions to the family.

Well there you go all caught up. I'll blog later this week. Blog later.